jpenseur; Introspective Personal Journal, Poetry, and Anthology.

Everyday people work extremely hard to have moments of happiness. Some never do. I have so many opportunities to in my life to live an authentically happy life. Today, I am happy. Always choose light because that's the selfless thing to do. 

The way the different flowers' colours popped all at once, it was so beautiful. You can have so much going on but flowers will always be blooming. Completely exclusive to all youe tribulations. Should you be putting so much weight on these things? Should they really be this heavy. 

 Sometimes the things that break your heart fix your vision.

Don't participate in your active exploitation.

I feel like for the longest time I have trying my very best to like everyone else. Out of loneliness? Perhaps. Whatever the case may be, I'm going to stop pretending to care about things I don't really. It takes up too luvj room in my mind. To be this and to be that. To say this. To not say that. It's too much unnecessary noise and clutter. 

 I look at myself from an outside place and I don't know who I'm looking at. When I see who I was and who I am now, I feel that I have lost someone important. I wonder if we will ever meet again.

Its funny how we realize after something is gone that that we had things really good. For the longest time I was chasing this ideal life. I was convinced that I needed it as some sort of ladder for my pyramid of fulfilment but now that I got what I thought I wanted. I was actually better off without. Life felt like life before all this chasing.