jpenseur; Introspective Personal Journal, Poetry, and Anthology.

Nothing is wealthier than a person who has freedom.

You can love people but it doesn't necessarily mean it's good for you to be around them. You will convince yourself that 'that's just how things are between us' or 'it's the dynamic'. I'm sorry to say this to you but that's tolerance. You see it as love but reality is, its never self-love. It's a disservice to you. Why stay when it's not what you want or are looking for? You feel lonely anyways. 

Today is a beautiful day. I shared my blessings with so many people. To be given the opportunity is a blessing in itself. It feels warm. It feels good to the heart. It feels like a new chapter for the soul. 

I'm practicing being more unconcerned with things that I percieved hold meaning to other people despite really not being the case. People are more self-centered than you realize. Knowing that, you can be more free. 

I'm pushing myself to be more comfortable with my own skin. I feel that I can be very self conscious about what I look like. I think I have created an image in my mind of who I am that is misaligned with who I really am. I'm trying to have less of a mask. I'm wanting love myself more by embracing my percieved flaws no matter how uncomfortable or embarrassing that may be. Most people are curious not judging. If they are judging you, what grounds do they really have? Its not about erasure now. It's about acceptance.

The conclusion that I have come up with is that I need a clean slate. I need to just release myself from everything I feel tied down to. 

It's never going to be you all the time, and that's okay. To accept that is to unveil your humility. It's clear.