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Mind Reader.

Me — i.e, jpenseur
I think I'm going to stop trying to read people's minds, and take their actions, words, and lack-of for what they are. Does it hurt me? Does is serve me? When I try to mind read I realize that all the oncoming information goes through my filters. My own belief system and insecurities. I can't make out other's thoughts because those are a reflection of my own thoughts. Thoughts that are highly negative most times. I am a villain to myself. The sooner I can dismantle that lens, the sooner I can grow to be the person I meant to be. A happy person, all of what I hope to be.
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"Be unassuming. Otherwise, you'll cry."
Me — i.e, jpenseur
I think regrets are part of being human. I carry heavy regrets, and I'm ashamed of them. Homework. I tuck them away somewhere; somewhere I don't have to look too far. I have the kind of regrets that leave marks on the upper traps. The kind that alters my body, and mind. Heavy books for a frail frame. Regret. The person that changed everything. Guilt. The distant friend. Often, I wish that I had the kind of stability that prevented me from hurting you. I am happy to have regretted you. I learned a lot. If you were meant to see a person again, you will. 
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Me — i.e, jpenseur
A phrase that stuck to me is 'No one is going to remember you for what you do, but will remember you for how you made them feel.' Anyone that's made me feel shitty, made me feel less than, unworthy, undeserving...I remember. I remember it all clearly. I offer no grace for those kind of people. I'll engulf them with light. One where it's so blindingly bright, they dissappear. No horid person deserves room in my mind. 
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Me — i.e, jpenseur
The worst part about being a human being is that everyone is egocentric and everyone needs attention, and everyone feels entitled to this and that. Everyone idolizes unimportant things. Everyone glorifies their own horrors. I'm no exception, but I try to better than that. Most people aren't or don't try. Most people lack that sort depth. I'm tired of listening to problems I don't really care about and giving energy to people who don't deserve it.
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Me — i.e, jpenseur
I am in complete disarray at the moment. I'm not too sure why. I think maybe I'm in 12 different places at once with a million things to do. I hope I can sort everything out soon. 
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Projections

Me — i.e, jpenseur
I think what makes so intelligent is that from an early age, I have realized that the projections people put on me is never my truth. I am not someone that is easily influenced by worldly things. I never look beyond, hoping to be more than who I am. I admire and I never covet. I came into world ingrained with an unnatural wisdom that I am of my own. No one else. 
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Me — i.e, jpenseur
To be captivating is easy but to stay interesting is hard.
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