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An opportunity to be better.

Me — i.e, jpenseur
I am currently facing the repercussions of an at fault mistake of mine. I been having a hard time digesting the emotional and physical trauma resulting from it. I have also been having a hard time detaching my identity from my mistake. I'm doing my best to cope and fix what I have done but the weight of guilt and embarassment feels so immobilizing. I admire people who are able to see mistakes not as a loss but as an opportunity to be better. I am thankful for all the people who would hold my hand when I'm in pain or feel irredeemable. I am greatful for the bigger picture set out for me. In all my uncertainty; I can trust that things will work out for the best for me. 
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"Be unassuming. Otherwise, you'll cry."

Frustrated and upset by both the lack of and the excesssiveness of my features.

Me — i.e, jpenseur
I have not been feeling confident; I look at myself in the mirror, and have been thinking  of how unappealing I can be. Nitpicking things outside of my control. Frustrated and upset by both the lack of and the excesssiveness of my features. It's really bad that I attach so much of my confidence to my appearance. A part of me realizes that I'm conditioned that way yet I don't give myself enough grace. I need to reframe my idea of what it means to be beautiful person. 
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A cluster of acicular crystals.

Me — i.e, jpenseur
In my introspection, I realized that I used to view myself as something of a thorn. Not easily approached. Not something you kept. Something that hurts. I feel that my perspectives have been shifting lately. I'm less of a thorn and more of a cluster of acicular crystals. I'm not easily held, but I'm admired. I'm not to everyone's eyes for the few I'm proudly displayed. Sometimes I'm something that heals. I have full control of who I want to be. 
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Me — i.e, jpenseur
I have been feeling more and more comfortable with having just myself as company. There's no pressure to be misunderstood. I feel like I have a lot more capacity for goodness when I'm not contantly thinking about the channels at which I tune for clarity. I no longer hold the weight of other people's mind. I'm holding my own; managing my own. It has really opened my eyes about what matters to me. 
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Me — i.e, jpenseur
An aspect of humanity that I find so amazing is that we are being capable to creation. Beings with the power to generate concepts. With how fast the world is developing; the only things that's limiting anyone is their imagination. 
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The ones living with intention.

Me — i.e, jpenseur
There are rare occasions where I meet people that facinate and surprise me. People that hold life with so much purpose. People that have done the work to be so self-aware, that they embrace their limited existence. One who make the most of life because they yearn for more. These are the types of people that are the most beautiful to me. The ones living with intention.
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Balloon

Me — i.e, jpenseur
There is that genuine desire to want to see people. There's is also that self-serving need to see people. When the void is there, I dont want to be an ornament. I would rather be free floating, like a ballon. Seeing all. All at once. 
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