I heard someone say to me that they would entrust me a their dog's puppy if it ever had one. I asked why, and they said it's because I'm a good person. That was really nice to hear.  I am sad that I didn't fully think that I was a good person when I heard it. Good people brighten other people's life and yet I feel that my presence can sometimes cause their shadows to emerge.  I want to starts believing that I am a good person. The kind of belief that isn't fueled by how others react to me. 

To the person that is for me, know that I have been becoming the best that I can be so that I am able to hold so much love for when you eventually come into my life. 

 I am proud of who I was, who I am now, and who I'll be in the future. 

 I have a pretty vast inner world. Sometimes I fear that this aspect of my character hinders me from being more vulnerable with people. The kind of vulnerable that leads into meaningful relationships. 

I am making a personal change. I have been feeling insecure and dejected lately. It's as if rejection has made me focus on all the bad things that make me believe I am unlovable and unworthy. It made me forget that there's people in my life that hold me close to their hearts. Sulking about people and situations I have no control over won't bring me any closer to the life I envision. My heart will simply carry love from now on. 

I have decided.