I have a pretty vast inner world. Sometimes I fear that this aspect of my character hinders me from being more vulnerable with people. The kind of vulnerable that leads into meaningful relationships. 

I am making a personal change. I have been feeling insecure and dejected lately. It's as if rejection has made me focus on all the bad things that make me believe I am unlovable and unworthy. It made me forget that there's people in my life that hold me close to their hearts. Sulking about people and situations I have no control over won't bring me any closer to the life I envision. My heart will simply carry love from now on. 

I have decided. 

It's much easier to say that your busy than to admit you are lonely. I want more companionship in my life. Finding people to click with is hard.

Why do I have such a hard time letting go of relationships that make me feel so uneasy. Relationships where I feel like I'm fighting for space. It's terrible. I know there is a garden out there for me.  

In all my things to get done. It always seems to find room in my mind. There's a mass in my chest, and it weeps.