There's something so liberating with no longer chasing for spaces. Spaces that never really had room for you. You were never losing. You were just not meant to be there. There are better places to be. 

I heard someone say to me that they would entrust me a their dog's puppy if it ever had one. I asked why, and they said it's because I'm a good person. That was really nice to hear.  I am sad that I didn't fully think that I was a good person when I heard it. Good people brighten other people's life and yet I feel that my presence can sometimes cause their shadows to emerge.  I want to starts believing that I am a good person. The kind of belief that isn't fueled by how others react to me. 

To the person that is for me, know that I have been becoming the best that I can be so that I am able to hold so much love for when you eventually come into my life. 

 I am proud of who I was, who I am now, and who I'll be in the future. 

 I have a pretty vast inner world. Sometimes I fear that this aspect of my character hinders me from being more vulnerable with people. The kind of vulnerable that leads into meaningful relationships. 

I am making a personal change. I have been feeling insecure and dejected lately. It's as if rejection has made me focus on all the bad things that make me believe I am unlovable and unworthy. It made me forget that there's people in my life that hold me close to their hearts. Sulking about people and situations I have no control over won't bring me any closer to the life I envision. My heart will simply carry love from now on.