Dear, My love is pure and bottomless. In all my wanting to serve and love you, I was killing myself. I slit my throat with daggers you threw at me. I heard that when you love someone so much, them hating you doesn't make you hate them, you hate yourself. I hated myself, really hated myself. I know that isn't fair to me though. My love is pure and bottomless. I don't deserve that. Sincerely,
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Fragility
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Loving you. It's dangerous It is like running inside an oval. Keeping track, my mind always in a race. No matter how far I go, it's always close in the back of my mind. It's dangerous. Especially since there's a fragility to me. I'm made of glass. A small force is enough to make me shatter. The friction against my skin is enough to make me chip I must avoid you. I can't shatter.
Mahjong,
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Individualism can be cruel. The misalignment between perceptions hits like a wall. Blunt force trauma to the heart and soul. You attach a label to the people you meet. A lover, a friend, an enemy, noise. It's like a convoluted game of Mahjong, where pairs often are just delusions of the mind. To my lover, I'm a friend. To my friends, I feel like noise. To the world, I feel like an enemy. To the lucky ones that call 'Mahjong,' devote yourself wholeheartedly.
Some fleeting moment in time.
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I'm just some fleeting moment in time. A small dose of serotonin. Just that blur in your vivid memories of everybody else. Though, behind this noise of pixels, there is so much longing. So much unrealized passion. So much hope. I'm the enemy of the one truth that matters to people. A statement unheard, Unloved.
On my mind.
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To be truthful, I was surprised. For you to tell me all the character flaws and the desires. I was in awe. In my mind, "A person so unexpectedly beautiful." You have that vulnerability that I shy from, the kind where I blush. An idealist like myself, you are unyielding. Looking for a love that's elevated above the waist. Focused on heart, mind, and soul. You are the novel of the hour, a novelty amongst crowds. You are a book with no conclusion. A read for my realization.
Costumes
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Everyone feel like they are looming over me. Watching me with critical eyes. Attaching me to preconceived notions of what my identify should be, Not really knowing me. I feel like a caricature of people's hopes and dreams, or someone's imaginary friend. I'm such a people pleaser that I force myself into this cast. Too many calls for performative theatre. I struggle to find face in a box alter egos.