I feel a lot of pressure to be someone that is able to bear all the problems of my loved ones. It's what my parents did for me and I want to be able to do the same but better. I feel a lot of pressure from the idea of leaving this mission unfulfilled. I also feel pressure from the ambiguity of what this mission really means to me. 

This may sound bizarre or arrogant, but I believe in my voice. A part of me truly believes that my writing is important and that someone out there can benefit from it. I used to think I had a fear of the dark; in reality, I'm scared of the 'null.' I'm afraid of not being able to absorb and feel what the world has to offer. 

  When I'm sad or lonely, I retreat to my family. I love all of them unconditionally. I want to serve them as best as I possibly can! If I lack the motivation to succeed for myself, I will at least try to succeed for them. No matter how badly I deteriorate, I will make sure they have everything they need and are happy and fulfilled.