I subconsciously plant seeds into people's minds that influence them to act in a trajectory I desire. I know in the back of my mind that it's not always the best, and I'm trying to improve with this. I have been very self-aware lately, and I'm scared of my capabilities. When it comes to relationships, I have a way of digging my nails into people's peace of mind.  

Sometimes, I need help to keep up with people's energy.

This is the beginning of something great. I realized that I have an attached personality type. I'm so deluded by a little bit of affection from people that I stop objectively thinking about them. I just see them as my saviour. I think about that now, and it's repulsive. I don't know why it took me this long to realize that all this time, I've been my own hero. I'm all the affection I need.It's essential to embrace self-love before extending love to others. Only once you have learned to love yourself entirely can you offer genuine love to those around you.

I don't know how to act in a way where I reassure someone that they're the only one I have eyes for. I always sense heartbreak and never know what to do about it. I always feel guilty. I could talk to fewer people, but that would make me depressed. I could be more reserved, but it just makes me feel inauthentic. I just wish people trusted in my character.