Dear, My love is pure and bottomless. In all my wanting to serve and love you, I was killing myself. I slit my throat with daggers you threw at me. I heard that when you love someone so much, them hating you doesn't make you hate them, you hate yourself. I hated myself, really hated myself. I know that isn't fair to me though. My love is pure and bottomless. I don't deserve that. Sincerely,
Posts
Showing posts from February, 2022
Recent Post
Be unassuming. Otherwise, you'll cry.
I enjoy writing.
- Get link
- Other Apps
I enjoy writing. Sentences give me joy. I feel enamoured by how words flow, It is like a warm shower. Comforting. It feels like droplets jubilantly dancing on my soul. I love how the sounds play in my ear and how words seem to catch me in a game of tag. I love how definitions build mountains in my brain and how I build bridges to cross. I love that I get to venture, And catch people's eyes. I enjoy writing.
Authenticity.
- Get link
- Other Apps
One thing I started noticing is that friendships can be so transactional. It's great to support each other, but sometimes I think the basis of some cordial support is to show that you aren't 'alone' rather than being happy with the company. I don't know; I don't like that 'keeping up with appearances' mentality; it's suffocating. I would rather be alone.
Strange things.
- Get link
- Other Apps
Hair made of dragon heads, you meet my gaze. Eyes burning with passion and allure, I stun you. You look aroused. Still from elation. Vasodilation. I feel my blood flow. You make me want to shed my skin. It tells me to play the fool. My breath turns heavy like I've seen my prey. I hold back my instinct to attack. My mouth waters, My mind wanders. "I want to take a bite of you."
Hollow Society.
- Get link
- Other Apps
I look around me, and I think to myself, I'm not meant for this era. I feel like authentic connections no longer exist. Lately, it feels like to feel a sense of belonging; you have almost to give up your individualism. I look through social media, and I think, "wow, has society become this hollow." Everyone seemed so absorbed by things I think don't matter. I honestly fear the future; I wouldn't say I like how things are and how things are shaping up.
What I feel at this moment.
- Get link
- Other Apps
It's like I'm holding back a burst pipe. I'm tired of trying to make sure that not a single drop of water hits the floor. My hands tremble at the sheer pressure. Trying to show an outward appearance of "I'm okay." It's sad. I'm soaking in anguish. Wet from tears because idealism broke up with me. I don't even know if there's an end to this leak. Will it eventually run dry? I feel like I'm drowning.
Concrete.
- Get link
- Other Apps
You meet with someone who piques your interest. A mutual admiration. Then what? What is the objective? To fill that part of you that's missing? To satisfy your sexual desires? To find your misplaced purpose in the world? To build a loving family? Why is it that people place so much weight on love? Why is it that society feels so concrete?