I just realized that I shouldn't feel lost because my goal has always been finding happiness, and happiness can be found in all sorts of places; specifics shouldn't matter; specifics shouldn't sadden me!   

It's kind of nice not having to give you so much attention. It's kind of nice that I don't have to make sure you are alright all the time. It's kind of nice that the times I think of you and is when I think of others. It's nice that you don't get a little extra piece of me anymore.       I've never been careful with what I say; that's what makes me me. When I gave you my puppy love, I lost my bark. I feel free that I no longer have to approach you with a censor. If you don't like my new self, the one prior to you, then goodbye. 

Now that everything is out on the table, I can finally work on making it good again. For some time, my secrets were keeping me from being fully present with you. Now I can be better. 

Today I felt relieved that I was unbothered by a lot of things that would usually bother me. I couldn't avoid all of them, but I practiced some self-control. My heart didn't even ache. 

I've been pondering for quite a while, and I've come to realize that.. 'Watashi wa anata ga daisuki desu' means more to me than I would like to admit. I don't care about all the repercussions of me saying that because... fuck it. No force can stop me from loving who I want. If, after all that, you're still not sure what I'm saying... I always have.. in some part of me.. liked-liked you. I have always wanted to get that out of my chest. You don't have to reciprocate me-liking you; I'm telling you all this because... when you flirt with me, it hurts a little more since I know it's all fun and games to you (you don't really mean it). Anyways... school is starting soon, you won't get to see me. This makes this confession slightly easier... I'm sorry if, in some way, this ruins your life. I just want to move on because expecting something that's not there is a waste of time.