I haven't wrote about anything in a while. I have been so busy with a lot of really exciting things in my life. I'm happy be blessed with such wonderful people in life. People who support me, and love me.

It gives me fulfillment like nothing else quite does. 

The external world has a lot of influence on how I view myself. More than it needs to. More than it should.  I don't put in enough work to cultivate the garden in my inner world. I think that's why a lot of things make me insecure .  I have attached my self-worth to others' opinions of me. I take myself for granted, assuming people wouldn't notice my flowers.  My little corner of the universe is beautiful. No one has to care other than me for that to be the truth.  Someone once told me they admired my lack of insecurity .  The sureness in myself. The confidence in my decisions.  If they only knew...I am not that person. Not yet, but I know I can be.  Let people do as they please... Let people say what they want... Let people be free... All because you love yourself enough to let them. 

If anyone can do it, I can. I will conceptualize these visions of grandeur . I can capture ir. I can paint it.