jpenseur; Introspective Personal Journal, Poetry, and Anthology.

The time spent with you was one of the most meaningful moments in my life. You made me feel so seen and heard. I wish I could tell you how much you have changed my life. Thank you. 

Love is not forcing them to choose. 

I fear that I lost my soulmate. I fear I'll never be able to love someone as unconditionally as I loved this person. All these romantic films that preach how love knows no bounds... How easily that rhetoric collapses in the face of life, expectations, and social norms. Love is not boundless. Love is not free. Love is not everything we hope it to be.

The older I get, the more I realize how no one cares about me. No one really cares about anybody but themselves. Being the exception isn't all that great if it's not reciprocated. I must supressess my need to love, that way it hurts less when I'm cast away. 

The only person who goes out of their way to make sure you are happy and succeed is you. You shouldn't need validation from people who don't really contribute to that. 

Sometimes I find myself wandering back to that moment in time when I felt so alone and misunderstood. I felt so much pain. I never want to feel that way ever again. 

  I think the worst thing you can do is let yourself get stuck in their bubble. You are responsible for ensuring that all your needs are being met. Don't hopelessly believe that staying inside that bubble for longer will eventually make you happier. It's a closed system. You only find peace and completion when you realize there's something better for you. My peace.