I feel so overwhelmed. I feel like I'm carrying so much weight on me. It's like, at any moment, I'll find myself laying on the floor. Muscles sore, mind in disarray. I can't love properly when I'm like this.

You made time for me despite being so busy. So kind and so funny. 

For some reason, I can't seem to go any further with how I feel. I thought about it for a while, and I've come to the conclusion that I'm scared. Scared of all the threats of something new and unknown to me. You reciprocated affection; the normal response would be thrill, excitement, and joy. I felt all of those for a brief moment. What came after was a barrage of doubt, fear, and anxiety. I'd been thinking about all the ways I could fail or not meet your and everyone's expectations. I have been quite overwhelmed by it. I have been hiding from you and avoiding you. I feel guilty, but I don't know how else to feel safe. 

I have this deep feeling of sorrow that creeps up on me from time to time. I can never point out what it could be or what it could mean. I really don't like myself when I'm like this. Does anyone like me when I'm like this? I'm sorry.  

I am going to take things slowly; we both have busy lives. There's a lot of change and moving parts. I care for you, that's for sure, and I would love to spend all my time with you, but I understand we need room to grow. An extension of love that a lot of people tend to overlook or undermine is giving each other space to be their own people. I want to look forward to knowing who you are. I hope for you to feel the same. 

You make my heart feel so full that it's spilling into my mind. I think about you frequently, and I find myself smiling a little too much. I am so lucky to have met someone so funny, kind, and intelligent. I strive to be everything you could ever want and more.

I am not worried or concerned at all about how you feel about me now. You made time for me, and like a soft warm breeze, everything that was bugging me just went away. The more you unravel the more captivated I feel. You are kind, and so funny, and you have the most charming smile. I'm so geeked out by you, it's embarrassing; the kind where I don't really mind.