I love making people laugh and feel happy. I want to just keep doing that until the very day I die. 

My worst fear has been that in my constant retrospection of our beautiful love scene, you no longer care.

I have been making outstanding progress. I feel a good change in myself. I discovered that I have to try hard to even think about you. You have become something of a useless fact. Prevalent but meaningless to me. 

I romanticized a life that isn't real. No one lives in this state of constant bliss. The reality is that everyone just shows biased snapshots of life. It's not always great or happy. Life can be dull, monotonous, lonely, chaotic... It's all normal. 

I choose to be free from you. I'm going to start forgetting.  Despite trying to forget, my heart always seems to remember. 

My heart is so scarred that I don't even trust people's acts of kindness anymore. I have been shaped to think that it's just some attempt to let my guard down, so that they have power over me. The world is very cruel. I don't want to be naïve or self-berating when people bring harm to me anymore. I can't keep making excuses for people. 

When someone no longer gets my love I wonder if they feel a little bit empty.