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Witch Hunt

Me — i.e, jpenseur
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Do these convictions burn me at stake? Is my love dark magic? 

Were you a victim, or were you simply enchanted?

With my dying wish, I say to thee, my love shall be smothered into ashes. 

"You do not get my mercy, lion. You are a beast through and through."

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