I stay away because I know well enough how emotionally volatile I can be. You told me about all the emotional abuse you have been through, and I just have this fear that I'll become something that same sort of monster that harmed you. I'm staying away for your sake. You don't know me like I know me. This is for the best.
Sound advice
How can someone expect you to treat others with kindness if you can't treat yourself with kindness?